Day Thirty! Lean On Me

Lean On Me
I'm Done!! If I were more awake, I'd tell you more about this painting. ZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Day Twenty-Nine - Trio of Pears

Trio Of Pears
10x10 oil on stretched canvas
Virginia thinks these pears have had a big night on the town and are now leaning on each other for support.  I like that! 
What is it about seeing your painting tiny on a screen that lets you finally see all that's wrong with it???   I see, of course, that I'll need to fiddle with the ellipse of the tray rim before I let it loose.  Otherwise, I think it can go out into the world and be a painting. Not an underpainting, not a good start, not a junior painting, but a grown up, graduate painting, with a mortarboard and tassel and everything. Ok, maybe, but only when I fix the ellipse. Maybe.

Day Twenty-Eight - Daughter Dear

Daughter Dear
11x14 oil on (white) canvas
This feels like a worthy underpainting... I hope to come back to this one and develop it further.

Day Twenty-Seven - Prop Shelfies

Prop Shelfies
12x24 oil on stretched canvas
I struggled, I growled, I might've sworn a little under my breath. Painting on a black gessoed surface is something I hope to never do again.  Karin Jurick does it every day. My hat is off to her. Just like when you paint on white, even light colors look dark, when you paint on black, even black looks light. Grrrr.  I do like the shapes, so when this painting sets up and I stop growling at it, I would like to develop it further.    In the meantime, this is what I accomplished today. 

Day Twenty-Six - Moving Forward, Looking Back

Moving Forward Looking Back
18x24 oil on stretched canvas
Something different. An idea I had, and I wanted to see if I could get it across. You'll have to let me know.

Day Twenty-Five - Nancy and Lucky

Nancy and Lucky
12x16 oil on a slick-as-grease gesso panel  grrrrr
Nancy and I have been friends online for maybe 25 years... since we met on an artist's group on Prodigy... remember Prodigy? Anyway, we only managed to meet once, years ago, but we have cheered each other on ever since.  If you're lucky enough to be Nancy's friend, you wish you could live next door. I wish that.  This is one of Nancy's lucky horses, named Lucky, as luck would have it.

Day Twenty-Four - Cody Wyoming

Cody Wyoming
My friends, Donna and Julie Good kindly allowed me to use their photograph of Cody as my reference for today's painting.  Like each of these 30 in 30 paintings, it's not as developed or "correct"
as I would like, but it was fun and I had the pleasure of company of the most wonderful artists online as I painted. Thank you, All!!!

Day Twenty-Three - Grapefruit and Liz

Grapefruit
18x18 oil on canvas

Liz
10x10 oil on canvas
Finally! I was able to do these two paintings today to "catch up" with my 30 Paintings in 30 Days Challenge.  Both need more work, and I hope if Liz sees this, she'll be comforted to know I'm not finished.

Day Twenty-Two, Painting Twenty-One - Beautiful Boy

Beautiful Boy
Detail from 16x20 oil on stretched canvas

This is as far as I got on this painting tonight, so it will have suffice as my daily painting. I have high hopes for this one once I get the time to really focus and continue.
I made two hour-long videos of me painting this on www.ustream.tv/channel/susancarlin, if you want to watch something slow... It's like watching paint dry.  Ha!  I had a couple of artist friends in the chat room, so occasionally I respond to something they write.  Scintillating!

Day Twenty-One, Painting Twenty

Irish Quartet
8x10 oil on canvas panel
This was a grouping on our table at an Irish cafĂ© last September. Mismatched, all white and looking for all the world like a tight group of friends or maybe a band of musicians. Real cream in the jug. Real sugar in the sugar bowl. Fabulous coffee. Looking out the window onto the water and boats along the west coast. Chatting with the woman waiting on us... and discovering she'd spent a summer in Austin the year before and has enjoyed her visit to San Antonio.  Small, beautiful world.

Day Twenty - Painting 19 - How Now

How Now
16x20 oil on canvas panel
Much frustration and disappointment trying to use my better camcorder to broadcast tonight while painting.  Viewers were subjected to Vaseline commercials ad nauseum, the broadcast clicked off and on throughout.... but I kept painting. I painted a cow because Phyllis asked me to. I hope she didn't have a Longhorn in mind...

Day Eighteen - Sisters

Sisters
11x14 pastel on Rtistix board
I bit the bullet and hooked up my exterior webcam to my laptop and broadcast this little pastel as I was painting it tonight.  Surprise, surprise- friends showed up to keep me company as I painted!!! It's been so long since I've done that, I didn't know what to expect. I haven't painted anything in pastel in ages and I was using a "set" (mishmash of pastels I threw in a box a LOOONG time ago) I was unfamiliar with... Although I'd be unfamiliar with even my favorite, last-used set if I could even find it!  Anyway, it was fun in a panicky sort of way.  Thank you to the friends and friendly artists who chatted me up as I painted tonight.  It meant a lot to me.

Day Seventeen - David Phillips

David Phillips
24x36 oil on canvas
David is a phenomenon. Actor, producer, director. And a very nice fellow.  He was our second AirBnB guest in July. We had the pleasure of getting to know him a bit while he was in town to show his latest film in the San Antonio Film Festival. Just before we drove him back to the airport, I asked if I might take photos of him for a possible portrait.  Both UK and I shot dozens and dozens of pictures until this one showed what I had in mind. We did get him to the airport in time, but just barely.  A couple of months ago I started on this portrait, but only got it kind of sketched out and the face blocked in.  Today I've gotten it to this point over many hours' work. There's more to go, but I feel like it's in good enough shape to post for my day Seventeen.  

Day Sixteen - Me Sideways

Me Sideways
The profile of UK seemed to beg a bookend.  Here t'is.  This is from a photo five years and fifteen pounds ago. Wise move.   Now we can be hung nose to nose.  That's not a sentence one is called to write very often.

Day Fifteen - Three Of Cups

Three Of Cups


11x14 oil on canvas
This was enjoyable... Very long, but enjoyable.   Sleepy... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Day Fourteen - Sue Bown

Sue Bown
20x16 oil on canvas
First of all, if I haven't completely portrayed Sue as the most charming, artistic, beautiful sprite of a woman, then I've fallen short.  And of course I've fallen far short. The reference photos were taken across the dinner table at Paesano's on the Riverwalk last April as we waited for our meals to be served. The table was encircled by all the artists attending my workshop in April last year. We'd had a horse-drawn carriage ride to the Riverwalk and were all getting to know each other better. Sue was in that great chartreuse sweater and scarf, with her great red hair against an abstract painting behind her.  I hoped someday to have an excuse to paint her from those references. Day Fourteen seemed like the perfect excuse! 

So much work yet to be done... Her hands are just blocked in and the sweater and scarf painted in a fast, slap-dash manner.  But it's 11:15 and I want to sleep a little tonight, so I'm posting it as is for now.

Day Thirteen - Phone Call

Phone Call
What fun!  I took the reference photos for this during my workshop last April- Narrative Figure in the Interior.  Our impromptu model here was one of the artists- Chelsea Phillips.  I took much creative license while painting this. I didn't want it to be a portrait necessarily, but I was grateful for such a cool pose.
This is 18x18 oil on canvas.

Day Twelve - Toys

Toys
These toys were listed in the online listing of an upcoming estate sale. They were propped on a carved wood piece of furniture and against a white wall. I thought they had a charm, and hope others might enjoy seeing them, too.  Wish I knew who the maker is and what they're called. Anybody?
10x10 oil on canvas

Day Eleven - Freshen Up

Freshen Up

12x16 oil on canvas.  
Confession: I found the reference for this painting among images in the advance advertisement of a local estate sale.  I removed offending objects and added the towel.  I love the subtle color scheme and will come back to this painting later on to further develop it.  Or not. I may decide to like it as it is.  Tonight I started painting at about 4 p.m. and it's now 8 p.m. My earliest finish yet!

Day Ten - Lady Mary

Lady Mary


I did use a Googled search for Downton Abbey to find the reference I used for this painting. I think I exaggerated the shape of her hat and her chin, but I do like this quickly done painting. It's about 12x16, I think, and oil.  And it's only 11:19 p.m.!! A triumph!

Day Nine - John

John

It hurts me to post this of John.  He's a classy, handsome fellow and I've only had time to do a first pass, so it's pretty crude. Basic shapes are there, but all the necessary subtleties are missing as yet. This one is 11x14 on RayMar panel in oil. Probably way too large and complicated to try to do in one evening. Ok, not probably. For sure. But By Golly I'm going to post this toddler of a painting and hope it gets the chance to grow up someday.
John is a literary agent in Dublin, Ireland. His love is Janetta, a lovely artist and friend I've known since I took a workshop in Ireland in 2009. The reference photo was taken during a dinner they hosted for our other host and friend there, Jan, her husband Colm, and UK and me in September.  They are all wonderful people. But, truthfully, if anyone speaks to me in an Irish accent I go all mushy and starry eyed and hope they won't ever run out of things to say. If you want to convince me of anything, say it in an Irish accent.

Day Eight - UK

UK
Tonight I was looking around for something to paint and I looked up and thought, "What better???!!" It took a little convincing, but eventually her "good sport" nature overcame her natural inclination to avoid the spotlight.  I hope she won't feel misused by my inclusion of her in my rising to the challenge of these 30 Paintings in 30 Days.

Oh, and I take full responsibility for each and every one of those sparkling salts in her pepper. True.

Warning: If you come around here in the next few days you might find yourself in a command photoshoot.  Just sayin.

Day Seven - Tangerine

Tangerine
This one was simply to indulge myself.  Simple shape, favorite colors.  Whether successful, or no, I did enjoy the doing of it.

Day Six - Shelby

Shelby
Shelby is my friend and my neighbor.  I sketched this out last April- a loose, light sketch - while Shelby sat for the artists in my workshop here at Whistle Stop Corner.  Tonight I dug it out and enjoyed painting this. I do see some changes to make, but it's midnight and time to post my day's painting.

Day Five


Little One

I'm grumpy about this one, but I've given it all the time I'm willing to give today.  I really love the reference and someday I'd like to revisit it and hang on like a bulldog until I'm proud of it.

Day Four

Prop Shelf
So much about this still needs work, but it's almost midnight and I need sleep. So it's got to be posted as it is!  I like a lot about this, but it needs a few more passes.

Day Three- Bedriye

Bedriye


This is an 8x10 oil of my partner's mother, one of the dearest people on this earth. When my mother died two Aprils ago, Bedriye made sure I knew that she was now my mother. I'm lucky indeed to be loved by her. Istanbul is so far away, but Skype does help us stay close with our family there.

Day Two - Janis


Janis

Oh my, am I rusty!
My reference was  a Facebook photo of my friend Janis who lives in Austin and is a wonderful pastel painter. I hope she won't regret agreeing to let me use her photo as a reference....

Day One of 30 Paintings in 30 Days

Maddy in April

I needed an intervention. Painting used to be an everyday joy, but my usual mechanisms to trigger picking up a brush and squeezing out the paint have ended. I need the same assignment-and-deadline as every other artist needs, so when I saw that Leslie Saeta was initiating a new round of 30 Paintings in 30 Days, I decided to join up and use it to get my painting juices going again.

It felt good to spend my evening painting this 8x10 oil of the lovely daughter of a dear friend. 29 more paintings coming up!

Portrait Painting Workshop May 14-17, 2015


I'm offering a THREE DAY (plus one evening) PORTRAIT PAINTING WORKSHOP
AT WHISTLE STOP CORNER.

Thursday May 14, 6-9 p.m.
Friday-Saturday-Sunday May 15-16-17, 9 a.m.-4 p.m.

$345. Includes Welcome Party and Demonstration Thursday evening, and lunches Friday, Saturday and Sunday.
 
Open to artists from Beginner to Advanced, as instruction is on an individual basis. (For example, a beginner may want to focus on sharpening drawing skills, while an advanced painter may want to work on refinement of edges or building confidence in mixing skin colors and representing values- your priorities are important to me, too.)
 
Artists will work from photographs I will prepare. Or bring your own references, but if they aren't "worthy", we'll "discuss." If 4 or more artists wish to have a session of painting from a live model, we can do that on Sunday afternoon.
 
Modules of instruction will include-

Composition concerns
Drawing considerations
Seeing and representing values
Mixing color
Application of paint- options abound.
Drawing / Painting hair, clothing and backgrounds

All the above imparted with generous doses of humor, enthusiasm and encouragement.
 
To sign up for workshop please follow this link:   Book Online
 
If you live further than a short drive away, we’d enjoy hosting you on site in our Guesthouse or Cottage,   Please call or email us for availability.

Guesthouse- $180. for three nights (plus one complimentary night if you wish to stay over on Sunday night.) 3 Breakfasts included
Cottage- $240. for one person for three nights (plus one complimentary night if you wish to stay over on Sunday night.) $285. for a couple. Three breakfasts included, plus Welcome party for 2nd person in a couple.

Call 210-602-8562 or email us@whistlestopcorner.com with your questions.

The Narrative Figure Inside. A three day workshop with Susan Carlin

It's impossible to describe the pleasure of announcing a workshop of mine in our own studio.  But, trust me, it feels WONDERFUL.  I hope you'll join us!-Susan smiling widely

The Narrative Figure Inside.
When: Friday, Saturday, Sunday February 20, 21, 22 with a welcome reception the evening of Thursday February 19.
Where: Whistle Stop Corner, 330 Lamar, San Antonio, TX 78202
Fee: $365. Includes instruction, model fees, reception and lunch each day
Who: For artists who want to feel more comfortable and better equipped in painting the figure, both from photographs and from life. This workshop will focus on telling a story with our paintings. Workshop limited to 12 artists. Artists may work in the medium with which they are most familiar. Susan will be demonstrating in oil.  This particular workshop is for intermediate artists (or for advanced artists for whom this subject matter may be newer).
Welcome Reception Thursday: Come hungry Thursday evening and party! Enjoy plentiful refreshments and wine, meet the other artists, choose your spot in the studio and set up your easel and supplies.
Friday:  Artists will have the opportunity to practice photographing the model in a variety of poses in order to create references for narrative paintings where the setting and situation in relation to the figure create a story for the viewer to enjoy. Although not a requirement, artists will especially benefit from this workshop by bringing along a laptop or iPad and a camera in order to practice editing the images and preparing them to be painting references. Much of the first day will be spent in this way. Composition is key.
Saturday:  After a demonstration by Susan, artists will be painting from the references they prepared. Each artist may choose whether to make many small painting ‘starts’ or to work on one painting all day. Artists may work from their monitors or from photographs made from their references. We will focus on improving accuracy in drawing and value, relating the figure to the surroundings by color and shadow to create a mood or feeling response in the viewer.
Sunday:   In two long sessions, artists will be working from the live model in poses to create narrative paintings.  Photographs may be taken from each artist’s perspective in order to continue work on the painting after the workshop.
We can host up to 8 artists in our guest rooms at Whistle Stop Corner. $180. for three nights in Guesthouse, $240. for three nights in Cottage.   Contact us for availability:  us@whistlestopcorner.com
To register, email: us@whistlestopcorner.com
210-602-8562

Whistle Stop Corner's first workshop!

Today the last of our guests headed back home after a magical five day workshop led by Carol Marine. We now know we are truly going to love our new life- as artists who will open our studio and guest house to other artists a few times a year for workshops and retreats. We had 18 unique and enjoyable artists in the studio, and 9 of them staying with us in the guest house and cottage this week.   Our meals were crazy good- prepared by Sue Bown, the incredible owner of Bide-A-While in Dickinson, TX. The double whammy of fantastic instruction and great food had each artist smiling and grateful they were among the lucky few who were able to attend. Carol's waiting list for this workshop exceeded 100. In the realm of art workshops, we opened Whistle Stop Corner at a pinnacle. 
We'll likely host smaller scale workshops in the future, but let me tell you: It was a thrilling way to begin our new (ad) venture!


Two New Workshops Scheduled!

Two Day Still Life Painting Workshop in Del Rio, TX : October 10-11, 2014. $150. Sponsored by the Del Rio Arts Council. For more information, email Nancy O'Brien at nobrien@delrioarts.com

Three Day Still Life and Portrait Painting Workshop In Bracketville, TX, sponsored by the Fort Clark Arts Group January 26-28, 2015. For more information contact Jean Levert Hood at leverthood@gmail.com

We're SO busy getting Whistle Stop Corner ready for its big debut, that it was pretty crazy to schedule a workshop less than a month before the opening...  But when I was asked so nicely, and when it sounded like a welcome break from painting walls and scraping old adhesive off of hardwood floors, I said YES, INDEED!  There are still four spaces available in the Del Rio workshop, so why don't you join us?

The workshop in Bracketville is after the first of the year and is in a warm part of the country, so you might like to promise yourself a little art and sunshine in the middle of winter.  I know I'm looking forward to it!

Portrait Workshop with a focus on Drawing Skills - January 17-18, 2014

Registration for this workshop is full. If you're interested in my future workshops, please email me!

If you've been looking for a chance to work on your skills in portraiture, whether in sharpening your drawing ability or in working out those flesh tones in your painting, come spend two days in November- Friday and Saturday, the 8th and 9th with me.  We're keeping the group small so each artist can be assured of plenty of personal attention.  I hope you'll join us!

Place: Harold's 
2743 Roosevelt Ave, San Antonio, TX 78214

Cost:  $150. 

Time: January 17-18, 2014
9:00- 4:00 with an hour break for lunch... bring your lunch and work on through, if you like!

Feel free to use your regular palette of colors, but if you'd like a recommended supply list, just email me: susan@susancarlin.com.



Final Touch, oil, 28 x 22 (Not Schmid)



I painted most of this painting almost four years ago.  I painted it online during my at-least-once-a-week livestreamed sessions and one of the artists who joined me via the chat function mentioned that the subject looked somewhat like Richard Schmid.  From that point on we referred to the painting from then on as "Not Schmid".   I still think of it with that title, to be honest.  But officially it's titled "Final Touch"... for a couple of reasons:  1) Even though the model (a nice man who did me a great favor to pose for many, many photographs) was not holding anything during our session, I gave him a paint brush in the painting. To me he looks like he's doing what all artists do toward the end of a painting- staring/seeing critically and deciding if it's time to sign it. And 2) I put this painting away just before finishing because I was puzzling too long on how to handle the shadows of his chair on the floor and wall and needed to get on to other paintings. Time passed. Other paintings were painted. About six weeks ago I pulled Not Schmid out and suddenly knew what to do about those shadows. I put on my Final Touch/es and framed the fellow up. He's watching over my shoulder in the gallery now.   A critical-eyed guardian angel.  I like him. 

Two Day Portrait Workshop Nov 8 and 9

... with me!
This workshop is over now... and it was SO much fun to work with such intent and happy artists.
I have another scheduled on January 17-18, 2014.
I hope you'll join us.

If you've been looking for a chance to work on your skills in portraiture, whether in sharpening your drawing ability or in working out those flesh tones in your painting, come spend two days in November- Friday and Saturday, the 8th and 9th with me.  We're keeping the group small so each artist can be assured of plenty of personal attention.  I hope you'll join us!

Place: Harold's 
2743 Roosevelt Ave, San Antonio, TX 78214

Cost:  $150.  Register by clicking on the PayPal button below.

Time: Nov 8 and 9
9:30- 4:30 with an hour's break for lunch

Feel free to use your regular palette of colors, but if you'd like a recommended supply list, just email me: susan@susancarlin.com.









Getaway, oil, 30"x24", black floater frame. $1200
 
Drawing, graphite, 10"x8"


Drawing detail
Although Whistle Stop Corner still occupies most of my waking hours (and probably most of my dream time, too), recently I've gotten the chance to paint a bit and to take this drawing commission above. The loving wife of the man on the left (viewers' left) commissioned me to make a drawing of him with his late father for Father's Day. The patio in background has some significance for them, so was requested to include the roof detail.  I've heard that it was received with love and appreciation.

The (large) painting at the top is of a little cove along the western coast of Ireland from my time there in 2010.  I long to spend many weeks in the future exploring that beautiful, beautiful country.
Since I've posted last (I'm embarrassed to see that it was in November... blush), we've traveled to Istanbul in April and got to take my dad with us this time.  It was a special 10 days of family, tulips, ancient architecture and a visit to Istanbul's incredible Modern Art Museum.  I'm in love with that city.

WSC is coming along... We now have new wiring everywhere: we can finally just flip on a switch and SEE. Very exciting, believe me, to roll up all those extension cords and put them away.  A couple of non-weight-bearing interior walls have been demolished and new ones framed in on Saturday.     We still hope to be ready for our first painting workshop in the former grocery store's space in the fall, but have decided not to make ourselves any crazier than we already are by scheduling anything before it's ready to go.   The cottage now has working lights and outlets as of yesterday.  We have our second tenant in Apartment 3.  Our friend Diana came over Friday evening with her tools and before long she had all the blinds installed in Apartment 2.  Things are progressing, we remind ourselves. Before long the vision and the reality will look very much like each other. 

I've gotten some of the sweetest messages from a few of you who let me know I'm being missed.  Thank you, Dear Ones.  I look forward to rejoining this good community when we can come up for air.  In the meantime, I'll post as I'm able!  Sending love....XOXO

Safe With You

Safe With You
This large 36" x 48" oil painting on stretched canvas is a departure for me. I enjoyed the experience of painting a simple concept just for myself. Ahh.
Haven't framed it yet, but it's drawn lots of positive comments from visitors at the gallery - always nice to eavesdrop on.

Thank you for dropping in on my blog!

September 30- One Day Portrait Workshop



One Day Portrait Intensive Workshop with Susan Carlin
for both oil painters and pastel painters.
 Whether you've painted hundreds of portraits or never have had the nerve, spend the last day of September moving your skills forward!
Sunday, September 30, 2012

Nueva Street Gallery
in La Villita, San Antonio’s Historic Art Village by the Riverwalk.
507 E Nueva Street, San Antonio, TX 78205

Workshop limited to 15 artists.
$100.
Register by check or email: susan at susancarlin.com to receive a PayPal invoice.

Please arrive 8:30-9:00 a.m. to set up. Workshop will begin at 9:30. 
Morning session– 9:30-12:30
Lunch 12:30-1:30 Bring your lunch or lunch on the Riverwalk
Afternoon session– 1:30-4:30.

We will be working from your choice among photographs I will provide. 
 Further details- supplies needed and parkng information, etc., will be sent upon registration


We’ll work our tushies off, learn a lot and have a blast!

 
Gallery: 210-229-9810
Nueva Street Gallery
507 E. Nueva Street
San Antonio, TX 78205

www.nuevastreetgallery.com

email: susan at susancarlin.com
Cell phone: 210-602-8562

Happy Freedom

New Schwinn Admiral 700c at Whistle Stop Corner

Parked at Nueva Street Gallery- Sculpture?!
If you could see me right now, you'd be blinded by my big grin. 

The thing we kept saying when we found the property that would become Whistle Stop Corner is, "We can bicycle to work!"  And this week we have finally begun! 

First, I did my usual uberFrugal thing... and consulted the listings in Craigslist.  We met a man at a parking lot midway and I jumped right on the blue bicycle he was selling for oh-so-little. Even though I'd noticed that he'd Armor All-ed the heck out of the tires and even though it was an asphalt lot at 2:00 p.m. on a hot late-August day in Texas, I still took the first turn too sharply and the slick tires slid across that hot asphalt and I went right down on my keister.  My pride was the biggest thing hurt.  My keister was the next biggest thing.  Oooch.  But I paid the man and rode it to work the next day.  Imagine my glee!  I did love the idea of the bike, but not the actual bike, turns out.  I still found myself looking at bicycles online.  Apparently I had not married the blue bike... we were just dating.

On Sunday I found The Shiny New Schwinn.  I also got Accessories: a cute white wire basket that comes off and has a handle for carrying, LED headlight and taillight, a Dddling-dddling-dddling bell, and a Kryptonite bike lock.  She's white with red lettering, red sidewalls and red piping on the seat and red cross stitch on the grips.  She's a rolling peppermint! Hey, that's a good name for her, don't you think?  Peppermint, it is.   I have an electric bike, too, named Peggy Sue:  the down-home version of Pegusus... get it? ;-)

It takes 10-15 minutes to get to Nueva Street Gallery or to get home to Whistle Stop Corner, depending on lights and those minutes are spent smiling and saying Good Morning and Good Afternoon to everyone I pass, feeling the self-made breeze and the freedom and instant time travel to my youth. 

My happiest Christmas was 1966 when I was 11 and my parents gifted my sister and brothers and I with new Schwinn bicycles. Mine was pink and white. I loved it so. It put wings on my sense of freedom and expanded my territory in a big way. I'm 57 now and still can appreciate that feeling.
What does this have to do with painting or art?  A happy artist makes happy art?  Another action taken to fulfill our dreams makes us more of who we are?  I don't know... It does feel like it's part of my dream as an artist somehow.   It's also less gas used and fewer parking fees paid... always good.  But a sense of happy freedom - The BEST.